Olivia Marshall is nervous as she embarks on a study abroad program to Spain with her best friend Nolan. Besides the obvious new adventure of living in a foreign country for the summer; there is something else bothering her. A familiar unsettling feeling resonates within and she can’t decipher the significance of it.
Spain turns out to be more of an experience than Olivia had imagined. She meets Andres, a mysteriously gorgeous guy who takes her places she has never been. Her newfound loves brings all of her insecurities to the surface causing her to question everything. She fights the negativity in her head that refuses to let her find happiness.
Despite her flaws Andres seems to love her, but she can’t truly accept it. What is real? What is an illusion? If something seems too good to be true it usually is. How does Olivia hold onto the best thing to ever happen to her if she can’t trust it? Or does someone else already have her heart?
After Olivia leaves the fantasy world of Spain behind she has choices to make that will change the outcome of her future. It isn’t until those choices are made that she understands the ramifications of her actions, but at this point…is it too late?
I am so numb and so confused. God, of course I love Nolan. He is so special to me. Hearing him talk about us in this way sends an ache through my heart because I know he is right. I guess if I am being honest with myself, we have always been more than friends. I don’t know why I didn’t see it before. Nolan has been the rock in my life supporting me these last three years, holding me up when I made horrible decisions, giving me strength when I needed it. He has been my sounding board, my strength, and my best friend through everything. A life without Nolan isn’t one I would ever want, but….I love Andres. I know it down to the depths of my soul that I am madly in love with Andres. I know that I could be happy with Nolan. Of course we would be head-over-heels happy together…if the past three years have shown me anything, it is that Nolan has the ability to make me so happy. I can’t. I just can’t. I can’t lose Andres. It would kill me. I love him. Andres is my forever. How could I do this to him? How could I do this to Nolan? Why did I do this to myself?
Ellie Wade resides in southwest Michigan with her husband, three young children, and two dogs. She has a Master’s degree in education from Eastern Michigan University and is a huge University of Michigan sports fan. She loves the beauty of her home state, especially the lakes and the gorgeous autumn weather. When she is not writing, you will find her reading, snuggled up with her kiddos, or spending time with family and friends. She loves traveling and spending the summer camping with her family in their camper.